How Time Flies

I'm spending the night getting ready for the official first birthday party for my baby! Miss P also gets another bit of a celebration with the family she hasn't seen since her big day. I felt really depressed and sad about them turning 1 and 5, about 2 weeks ago, almost teary at different times. I guess I'm over it, because tonight I really don't feel much of anything about it. Just looking forward to some time with my family and a chance for them to laugh at all the funny things that the kids are doing, and of course, the cake! Half pumpkin, half chocolate and the cream cheese frosting comes later-probably in the am because I'm getting tired!

How does that happen?

Have you ever let your kitchen get so trashed, because of a quickly thrown together dinner and the dishwasher needing to be emptied? What that is the case at our house tonight. We are all sitting in the living room, with our backs facing the kitchen, avoiding it and pretending that it doesn't look like a pig pen. There are pots and pans to wash, counters to wipe, papers to put away. It's beyond overwhelming. I'm afraid if we don't do something tonight, that the dog will get into something tomorrow while we are all gone. I would like to go out and get the coffee pot ready for morning and make a lunch to take to work, but then I'd have to fester in the rest of the mess! And...that...is why I'm on the computer right now! AVOIDANCE!!!

Overwhelmed!

Somehow, the summer got away from me. I am officially disorganized! We all just do whatever we have to survive around our house! There is no method to our madness. It's been kind of a soul-searching kinda couple weeks. My first baby turned 5 on Thursday. I was feeling sad and sentimental about it for at least a week prior. I am so proud of her and amazed at how grown up she is and how much she's changing but it's sad to see her grow up and think of how fast the time has gone. That leads me to feel sad that my baby baby is turning 1 in two weeks. Now, HE has grown fast! He has changed leaps and bounds the past several months and when people say the first year is a blur, I agree. This first year is even more of a blur than it was when Peyton was born. This really makes me sad! Even though I'm excited to see how he changes and grows. It's just kind of unbelievable to see how much he's changed already in this first year.

I spent a couple hours tonight, feeling overwhelmed by technology. I uploaded a bunch of photo's to snapfish. Not because I love the site, but I just don't have time to research and find something better and I'm so behind on printing pictures. $50 later, that's sorta caught up. Then I decided to save a bunch of pictures off of my camera and onto the computer, so I could clean off my memory card. Once I started on that, I knew I needed to get my act in gear and save pictures onto a CD, so I could throw them in the fire-safe box. So I literally spent an hour saving pictures from the past year and 8 months. It actually feels REALLY good, but I think to myself, how can I keep up? How will I feel if I forget to save some event or monumental moment so my kids can't see it when they get older? What if I save all these things in all these places I feel are right, and then realize, later, that these spots are obsolete years down the line? I have anxiety about losing memories and history! I freak myself out worrying about it. If I had time, I would research some more and come up with my game plan for archiving memories. I'm taking suggestions, so please let me know if you have any good ideas!